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&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;好，我接受，可是咱们在现实里挺熟的，为什幺要在上装不熟？&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维哀叹了一声，&ldqu;好吧大哥span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;我简单跟你说吧，你span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;我也好，在我微博下评论也好都会被其他人看到，尤其是你的那些少爷少奶奶们，他们会胡乱猜测的，没事也会整出大事来，我不想出名，就一普通acgspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;足球狗，刷刷球赛游戏新番，看到开心不开心的日常吐槽几句而已。反正我们天天见，你有什幺大事小事一个电话不就联系上我了？&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤对他说的那些鬼东西半懂不懂，不过还是点了点头。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;而此妖孽诸多令人侧目的地方除了高帅富的配置，臭不要脸的精神，学东西也好、适应性也罢还都特别快，估计又是从欧可非那儿学来的，第二天他又火速注册了个小号，夹在一堆僵尸粉里成了孟维新增粉丝中不起眼的一个，更绝的是从头像到马甲统统是僵尸粉的风格，地理位置写特立尼达和多巴哥，发微博也知道发到分组里去了
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;这幺一来孟维彻底无话可说了。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;那边欧隽坤vipspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;认证的微博隔个三五天发一条衣冠楚楚的 人生赢家微博，这边cosspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;僵尸的小号又暗戳戳地围观孟维的风吹草动。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;自从知道欧隽坤开了小号后，孟维每天早上到办公室一开微博，不再是皇帝批阅奏折时忧国忧民的心情，而是在养心殿里时刻提防卧底监视军机要务的警惕心情。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤其实白天忙工作，没闲工夫刷微博，可但凡他有空上来瞅两眼，就看到孟维不是刷天书一样的足球话题就是转发吐槽看动画片的心得，下班到家后，孟维就被他 教育说&ldqu;幼稚！多大人了居然还看动画片？你妈知道也不说你？&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维不禁翻了个白眼，&ldqu;我觉得你真的快赶上我妈了，脑路都一样span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;现在很多成年人都看动画漫画，题材很多，有的会探讨一些深刻的题，制作方面也很精良。&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;你说有成年人看这些，那有讲两个男人谈情说爱的动画片吗？&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维本想给欧隽坤科普一下动画漫画的知识，刚打好腹稿就听他冷不丁扔出这幺一句来，瞬间有种被雷劈到的感觉，不过他还是认真地想了想，平时自己常看的是番、机甲番和吐槽番，从未染指过近来大热的几个基番，更不用说红果果的blspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;番了，一来是怕看了也许会自我代入，二来是觉得卖腐有种微妙的雷感，至少他被小麦逼着看了一集，只觉得无法直视span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;是听说过几部，不过我都基本没看过。&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;也不知欧隽坤是吃错药了还是瞬间就开悟了，也不管动画片幼稚不幼稚了，居然磨着他推荐blspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;动画
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&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维不好意思直接问相熟的女汉子们要推荐，怕被她们围观调戏，只好自己硬着头皮凭着印象找了一部口碑不错的 初恋题材的blspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;番。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;可是这还没完，欧隽坤直接拖着他一起看。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;结果两人大晚上的看同一部动画却有着截然 不同的反应。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤基本上当搞笑片来看的，也不知道戳他哪儿的笑点了，从头笑到尾，一会儿说：&ldqu;这里面的人长得都跟没进化好似的，那个span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;的下巴尖得可以钻木取火，低头就能自杀。&rdqu;一会儿又说：&ldqu;这个span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;一集究竟要脸红多少次啊？说几句就害羞，我见过最cspan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;的也不带这样的。&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;除此，欧隽坤的有些反应，用孟维的猜测来说大概就是&ldqu;被雷到&rdqu;的心情，这种时刻唯有&ldqu;卧槽&rdqu;才能精确表达。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;倒是孟维从始至终都很投入地看，他太明白 初恋戛然而止以及那之后的岁月中无穷 无尽的暗恋滋味了
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&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;和受/st:persnnamespan style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;君演对手戏的攻君形象，时而像陆浩勋，时而像欧隽坤，时而又二者皆不是。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;即使大多数st:persnname prductid=时候攻 w:st=n时候攻/st:persnname君和那两个人都没什幺重叠的，可是他完全能理st:persnname prductid=解受 w:st=n解受/st:persnname君的心情，那样的转千，那样的欲言又止，那样的暗潮涌动。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;无数次地想麻痹自己，要狠下心，要忘记，要放下，可是还是会一步步地在对方的逼迫和入侵下，没骨气地退让退让再退让。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;明明告诉自己已经没有期待，不可以有期待时，偏偏又十分在乎对方的态度。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;在动画剧情的铺展中，他时而为角感情线的递进充满期待，时而又被虐心的场面纠结得眼底酸涩。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;一口气看到快span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;点了差不多是睡觉的时间，欧隽坤把视频关掉，往后倒在沙发椅里笑说：&ldqu;你和那个span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;的变扭劲儿还真是一路的，得小心伺候着才行。&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维还沉浸在剧情中，听他这样煞 风景地说，多少有些不高兴，然而到底不想和他就这个话题继续下去，只默默地上自己的笔记本电脑，拔下电源，撤退自己的卧室。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;刚才看片的时候那幺投入，不会是想起你的 初恋了吧？&rdqu;欧隽坤忽然问道。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维拿着笔记本，走到半路一怔，背对着他说：&ldqu;无聊！&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤轻轻一笑，说：&ldqu;是不是只要你们一有机会重逢，你就打算和人家再续前缘？&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;当初无视自己告白的这个人又来对他管东管西了，还真是把自己当事。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;为什幺不？&rdqu;孟维仿佛很是解气地说，&ldqu;遗憾了这幺多年，总想给自己一个交代吧？&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;这欧隽坤倒是来劲了，反问他：&ldqu;是谁之前还说&lsqu;很努力很努力地放下他&rsqu;，不会再犯贱的？&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维瞬间被他戳中了痛处，忍不住反问他：&ldqu;欧隽坤你懂什幺？你喜欢过 一个人吗？你从来就没喜欢过 一个人，你又有什幺资格来说我？你知道喜欢 一个人却得不到应的滋味吗？我也想放弃啊，可我做不到。你知道我有多讨厌这样的自己吗？每当我想重新开始生活向前看的时候，只要这个人突然出现，哪怕一句无关紧要的关心，哪怕是一句玩笑，只会重新燃起希望，觉得我们是有可能的。我更不想承认喜欢他是个错误、是个误会，因为我不想否定那时候的他和那时候的我，那样的心情是不可复制的。它不是一时冲动，而是在分开之后的每一天里被加深、被验证。因为喜欢，所以只会一再犯贱。&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;说完这些，孟维觉得痛快多了，压抑在心中最深处的秘密终于可以尽数对这个人宣泄出来。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;假如不是因为会心软，他又怎幺会在医院不期而遇时还会搭理欧隽坤？那个无视他告白的人，他早该和这个人老死不相往来了。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;假如不是因为还喜欢着，他又怎幺会答应跟眼前这个人一起跑步，上他的车，允许他碰自己？甚至让他进自己的家门？
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&qut;times new rman&qut;要不是因为放不下，他怎幺会让欧隽坤住进来？老妈同意顶什幺用？只要狠下心来，他完全可以拒绝开门。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;可是他还是一而再、再而三地犯贱、心软。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;他不是傻子，他以为欧隽坤一再来找他、一再接近他，也许是喜欢他的。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;所以他猜猜猜，等等等。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;到头来还是自作多情了。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤习惯了炮友的相处模式，又是个理性的人，什幺都分得清清楚楚；可他孟维不是，从未和同性有过这样深入的关系，假如不是因为真的喜欢，他绝对不会和同性上床，更不会心甘情愿地一直为他做span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;
ms-hansi-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;向同性表白一次已是他的极限，是他从前都不敢去做的事，而且性质也完全 不同于向女生告白，所以他无论如何也不可能再说第二次了。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;人心终归是柔软的，而他唯有缩进自己那坚硬的壳里才不会让一颗心被撕得支离破碎。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;最后，他宁愿做一个傻子，不去猜，不去等，不指望，不明白。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;这一个月，是他对这个人最后容忍的期限，从此这个人再也不能肆无忌惮地挥霍他的所有温柔和心疼。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;他这一席话说完，半晌都没有应，转过身来看欧隽坤，却见他脸色难看得吓人。
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤已经很久不这样了，最近因为病情稳定，已经在医生指导下开始减少用药剂量了，而现在脸色惨白不发一语着实把孟维吓得不清，忙将手提一把扔在床上，走到他面前忐忑地问他：&ldqu;是不是又觉得不舒服了？我们现在就去挂急诊？&rdqu;慌乱中又看到放在床头柜上的氟西汀药盒，便问：&ldqu;你今天按时吃药了吗？吃了多少？是 严格按医生说的剂量吗？&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤徐徐做了个生呼吸，而后看住孟维，轻声说：&ldqu;我知道我有病，但你可否不要一直提醒我有病？我知道你是关心我，可越是这样的关心就越是把我和正常人别开来。我自己的身体我自己最清楚，我想早早摆脱这种痛苦的心情比你们任何人都迫切。&rdqu;
span style=fnt-family:宋体;ms-ascii-fnt-family:&qut;times new rman&qut;;ms-hansi-fnt-family:
&qut;times new rman&qut;孟维知道欧隽坤自尊心向来很强，尤其是在这个病的问题上格外的在意，只好温言说：&ldqu;好，我以后不这幺想，也不这幺说了，但如果你有不舒服的时候不可以隐瞒我。&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;我刚才有阵子感觉不好，现在那股子劲已经下去了，你放心，我很好，我很努力想让自己变好。&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;你能这样想就很好。&rdqu;孟维松了口气，拉起他来催他上床睡觉。
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&qut;times new rman&qut;欧隽坤走了两步却站住，突然反握住他的手，孟维起初一滞抬头看他，不过一瞬便又任由他这样握着。欧隽坤看进他的眸子思量了片刻，最后说：&ldqu;你刚才说错了，其实我一直喜欢着 一个人，他在我 人生跌入谷底的时候，一直帮我抓住我自己，当我无数次想撞向冰冷的墙面，想钻进来往车辆之下，想从阳台纵身一跃的时候，只要想起他，我就不能去死，我会怕死。我怕我死了，他会忘记我，我怕我的每一个忌日都看不到他送的花。&rdqu;
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&qut;times new rman&qut;&ldqu;后来我还是伤了他的心，在他为我受尽委屈后，我却没有办法给他一句承诺。而现在，我再次出现在他面前，这是我和朋友聊了很久很久后做出的疯狂决定，哪怕我也许会改变原属于他的 人生 轨迹，哪怕我死后要下地狱，我也要不惜一切只为让他和我在一起，每过一天就当是赚一天，直到我死的那一天。我知道这样做是自私、背德、非理智的，我都认了，所有这一切罪责都由我一人来扛。&rdqu;</p>